MHA #16 - Saturday Afternoon

[itsananomaly]

The last several hours had been a lot with Captain Ryan turning up and he wasn’t entirely sure how he felt about it but talking to Ryan had helped.

After a while, Ryan had taken one look at Cutter’s kitchen and had decided to go into town to fully stock up and he had said he was going to cook Cutter a home cooked meal. His old apartment may have been a mess but the one thing he did know outside of the military was how to cook. So taking Lester’s credit card, which Cutter was honestly still surprised that he hadn’t been cut off from after Becker’s birthday trip. Maybe James was waiting til he was back at the ARC before he started yelling about that trip.

Cutter was not expecting any other visitors, he had thought that maybe Stephen would visit but so far there seemed to be no sign of him so he took that to mean that only Ryan was his visitor. Which was fine, really, it was probably for the best if he didn’t have a visit from Stephen, there were a lot of unresolved issues and the visit would have just been really awkward.

In the meantime, as he waited for Ryan to come back, he decided to start thinking about his future at the ARC, he had promised Ryan he would give it serious thought and he knew that whatever decision he made he would need to talk to Connor about it but he could start to seriously consider whether or not he wanted to return to the ARC in an official capacity either as the team leader or a research assistant.

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[itsananomaly]

"I don't know if I can, I ... I was completely selfish and I don't know if my actions can be forgiven," Cutter sobbed as Stephen pulled him into the hug, "I ... I'm trying to work through it but I ... I miss how things used to be and I don't know if we can ever get to that again,"

[thearcfamily]

"You both are smart, you will figure it out" Stephen said simply. He had a feeling there was more than just the strong friendship there between Nick and this version of Connor. But it wasn't his place to bring it up and if Cutter wasn't going to mention he wasn't going to either.

[itsananomaly]

Cutter closed his eyes as he tried to stop his tears but couldn't, "what if I don't?" he said softly, "what if I just mess things up again ...like I always do,"

[thearcfamily]

"If it happens, then you deal with it and figure things out from there," Stephen said simply. "You cant miss what you got right now because you are worried about tomorrow or what ifs. You will drive yourself mad that way."

[itsananomaly]

Cutter sobbed but he nodded at that, "I guess I'm still scared of the future, with everything being uncertain, not knowing my place at the ARC ... I guess the only thing I can keep doing is moving forward, focus on what I can control,"

[thearcfamily]

Stephen pulled Cutter back into a hug and held him for a moment, rubbing his back lightly as he did. "You have been through more than anyone else could have endured. You will get through this. I have no doubt of that." Stephen gave Cutter a small squeeze as he added "and the Nick Cutter I know is too stubborn to go down without a fight anyways."

[itsananomaly]

Cutter trembled as he leaned in and gratefully returned that hug, tears running down his cheeks as he held tightly on to Stephen, "thank you," he whispered softly, "I ... I'm going to get through this, I'm going to work on this ... you being here has helped me so much already," he sobbed.

[thearcfamily]

"Then that alone has made this visit worth it" Stehen said as he kept the hug going for a while longer. "So..." he said when he finally broke the hug and sat back on the couch and looked at Cutter. Why don't you tell me a bit about what its like here in Fandom. I get the feeling that there's a level of oddness here that would even rival the ARC" he said with a small grin. He knew there was a lot that was going on and all, but Getting Cutter to focus on happier topics would probably be good for him right then considering.

[itsananomaly]

"You have no idea," Cutter said softly with a grin as they sat back down on the couch and then as they settled down he began to talk about everything about Fandom and describing some of the more weirder things to happen to him since he had moved to Fandom.