A Room at a Private Hospital - London

[itsananomaly]

It was a couple of days later and Cutter and Connor had been for their first physical therapy session, everything hurt. Cutter just wanted to get back in bed and not do this again. "Do we really have to do that again?" he asked as he and Connor were taken back to their room, even though he knew what the answer would be. [preplayed with the amazing anomaly_research_nerd Major CW for medical trauma and injury and recovery. NFB for distance but OOC welcome!]

Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"You know the answer to that Nick" Jenny said softly as she helped push Connor's wheelchair as they headed back to the hospital room. "I know its not fun but it's important for your recovery." "It's really not fun at all" Connor agreed with a sigh. He hurt more now after the session than he had when they had taken them back an hour or so ago.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter grumbled a bit at that as the nurse pushed his chair towards the room, "it was worth a try," he sighed, looking sympathetically at Connor, "I feel like that session was worse than the last time,"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"It was pretty rough," he said with a nod, glad to have his arm back in the sling where he could just rest it after that session. "Doesn't feel like we even did all that much but I am absolutely worn out!"
Cutter(itsananomaly)	"Even my head is throbbing," Cutter groaned as his hand went to the bandages that were still covering his head, "I'll be glad when we're back in the bed,"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"It'll take getting used to" the nurse said gently as she and Jenny made their way back to the room. "You both did wonderfully though" she said with an encouraging smile. "I'll just be glad to rest for a bit. Didn't think my arm could hurt worse than it already was" Connor said with a small laugh.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter laughed at that and then winced at the pain that caused in his head, "maybe we can see if there's any reality tv on and watch TV for a while?" he considered, "I wouldn't mind just having something on meta for Big Brother?"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"I think listening would be fine" Jenny said as they got to the door of the room. "Not sure a lot of TV watching is best for either of you right now but having something on in the background I don't think would hurt." "That does sound nice. Big Brother would be something we could listen to and just kinda watch while we rest some" Connor said with a nod.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	"Alright listening more than watching," Cutter agreed, "and do you think maybe later we could go outside? I remember how nice that was last time, being able to go outside for lunch,"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"I think we might be a little ways off from that right now" the nurse said softly. "But as soon as the doctors say it is ok we will definitely set up a couple lunches outside for you each week" she said. "Will be worth it to get there" Connor said as they got tot he door and Jenny went to open it for them. "Give us something to look forward to while we do therapy."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter was a little disappointed at that, he had been hoping that they could go outside for a bit after the last few days but he knew that they would be able to get there. "Okay," he said softly, "a couple of lunches outside a week would be good, when we get to that point," he added.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"It wont be long Nick.. we'll be eating outside before you know it" Connor said, trying to encourage him. "Connor's right Nick" Jenny said softly. "We just want to make sure you are well enough. It will probably just be a few more days then we can look at moving lunches outside some. I will talk with Lester and have all the preparations ready to go as soon as you both are given the all clear."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter nodded slowly, trying to focus on that instead, "thank you," he said softly to Jenny, "that will be really nice," he said, "and a few more days is all it will be right?" he double checked hopefully.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"So long as things progress well yes" the nurse said with a grin. "Now, let's get the two of you back in bed so you can rest." Connor nodded and then bit his lips. He really wasn't looking forward to trying to get out of the wheelchair and back into bed.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter looked over at Connor, noticing that look, "I'm right here Connor," he said softly as the nurse took him round to his side of the bed and he was carefully helped into it. He held out his hand as far as he could, keeping his gaze firmly on Connor. "It will be alright Connor," Jenny said softly, "we take this nice and slow,"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor nodded and took as deep a breath as he could. Everything still hurt. His chest hurt when he moved too much and even breathing was still hard at times. Slowly he stood wincing at the pain of the movement as he grabbed Jenny's hand to steady himself as he tried to take the few steps to the bed. "It hurts..." he said through gritted teeth.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	"I know it does Connor, I'm sorry just a few more steps," Jenny encouraged as she held onto his hand and started to guide him to the bed, "then you can rest for the rest of the day, I promise," "You can do this Connor," Cutter added his words of encouragement as well as he kept his hand outstretched for Connor to take when he was close enough.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor grabbed the edge of the bed once he was close enough and sat down. As he slid over onto the bed he grabbed Cutter's hand, gasping for breath a bit as he finally got into the bed. There were tears in his eyes and he was trembling a little by the time he finally got into the bed. "M-made it" he said as he let out the breathe he didn't realize he had been holding just then.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	"You did," Cutter gave Connor's hand an encouraging squeeze, "we're back in bed and we can rest now," he added, the bed had never been so inviting. "You did so well Connor," Jenny praised as the nurse went to check on their vitals, "I'm so proud of you,"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor smiled slightly as he laid back in the bed eyes closed and tried to catch his breath. By the time the nurse was done checking them over he had finally calmed down and gotten his breathing back under control. He looked over at Cutter and saw the worried look on his face. "It's alright Nick. I'm fine" he said trying to sound more confident than he felt as he gave Cutter's hand a light squeeze.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	"Are you sure," Cutter said softly, still holding onto Connor's hand, "I know this is painful for you Connor," he still felt guilty that Connor was in so much pain, still blaming himself for Connor getting shot in the first place.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"I'm good... just.... getting used to the moving and... using the lungs so much" he said as he gave Cutter's hand a squeeze. "It's to be expected," the nurse said gently when she had finished. "You've done amazing so far with your recovery Connor.You should be proud of the progress you have made already!"
Cutter(itsananomaly)	"She's right," Jenny added as she fluffed up Connor's pillow and tried to help him get comfortable, "you've made such remarkable progress these last few days, you both up," she smiled at Cutter and Connor. Cutter tried to relax as much as he could in bed, he was still holding onto Connor's hand, giving it a reassuring squeeze, "than you," he said to Jenny and the nurse, "thank you for helping us,"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor nodded, holding onto Cutter's hand as he looked at the nurse and at Jenny. "Thank you" he said softly as he laid back on the pillows and got as comfortable as he could. "Thank you Jenny... for everything" he said as the nurse finished her check and then finished adding their next dose of medicine to their IVs.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	"You're welcome," Jenny smiled, "I'll stay with you while you get some rest and then someone will come and relieve me for the lunch shift," she told them. Cutter was starting to feel even more tired now as the medicine went into their IVs, "I love you Connor," he said softly, not wanting to let go of Connor's hand.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"Thank you Jenny" Connor said as he shifted a little more onto his good shoulder, still holding onto Cuter's hand and leaned as close as he could to rest his head on his fiance's shoulder. "I love you Nick... so much... always" he said as he curled up the best he could beside the man he loved and slowly started to drift off to sleep.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	"Thank you Jenny," Cutter echoed as he curled up close to Connor, and tried to get comfortable "and I will always love you Connor," he said and then his eyes began to close and it wasn't long before he was drift off to sleep. The nurse left them just then and Jenny sat down on a chair as she waited for the next person to take over, "you're not going to be alone," she reassured them as they started to drift off, "someone will be with you,"
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Ever since he had woken up from his surgery, Cutter had not been dreaming but after that first therapy session, he found himself getting a lot of random flashes in his head that didn't make sense to him. As the flashes became more consistent, they got more intense and eventually he started seeing Helen in them. He moaned as he tried to wake up from where he was curled up next to Connor but he couldn't.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor hadn't been sleeping the best either- not that anyone ever really did sleep well in a hospital. But he had managed to drift off for a couple of hours. But that was when he heard Cutter moaning beside him. Instantly he was awake and as best as he could, Connor pushed himself up on his good arm and tried to rouse Cutter. "Nick... Are you alright?" he asked. "Nick, wake up... it's just a bad dream Nick."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter's eyes were closed as he tried to fight off the dream, "Helen stop ..." he cried out, "please don't ..." he kept crying, wanting to wake up from the nightmare that he was trapped in.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor hated seeing Cutter like that. With some effort he got more upright and reached over and gently rubbed Cutter's shoulder, trying to rouse him. "Nick. It's Connor. I'm right here... you're safe" he said gently as he tried to help Cutter break free of the nightmare.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	With a startled gasp Cutter woke, eyes glazed as he took bit gulping breaths, "Co...Connor?" he said weakly when he realised he was back in the hospital room, tears rolling down his cheeks.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"I'm here Nick. I'm right here" Connor said as he pulled Cutter as close as he could. "You're alright, Helen... she cant hurt you anymore."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter trembled and started crying as he leaned against Connor, wishing that he could get closer. "I'm sorry," he sobbed, "I ... the attack, I ... think some of the memories have come back, I ..." he had to take a deep beep breath then as his emotions threatened to overwhelm him.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"Oh Nick..." Connor said softly as he held Cutter and awkwardly rubbed his back what little he was able to. "I'm right here. You're safe. I'm not going anywhere."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter kept sobbing, as he leaned into Connor's touch, "feel so stupid, the doctors said the memories were going to come back, I just ... I thought it might take a while," he admitted.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"There's nothing to feel stupid about Nick" Connor said as he shifted and slid over closer. "It's something you are being blindsided with. I'm just sorry you have to have the memories coming back like this."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter kept crying as he tried to get as close to Connor as possible, "none of the memories make any sense though," he said softly, "I just see Helen and you and then I feel a lot of pain," he admitted.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor held onto Cutter, tear of his own forming as he remembered everything they had been through. "It's a lot to try and process, especially with your memory fragmented still. I know it's frightening and overwhelming. You don't have to face this alone Nick. I'm right here always." Connor places a small kiss on the top of Cutter's head, realizing he couldn't feel it cuz of the bandages but he still wanted to do something to try and comfort him some.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter wished more than anything that he could feel that kiss as he lay there sobbing, “thank you, I …I don’t want to this alone,” he said quietly.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"You won't ever have to Nick, I promise. I am right here" Connor said softly. "I am here to hold you, to talk, to listen, whatever you need to do whenever you are ready to. I will always be here for you Nick."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter trembled as he kept sobbing but his sobs were getting quieter as he lay there next to Connor, “I’m …I’m scared of what the rest of the memories are going to be,” he said quietly.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor trembled a little himself. He had the memories mostly clear from the start and he was still struggling to cope and deal with them all. He could only imagine how hard it all was for Cutter right now. "I know Nick... but you don’t have to do this alone."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter stayed there in Connor’s embrace, wishing he could be closer. He blinked back the last of the tears, “thank you,” he said softly, “it means a lot knowing that I don’t have to do this alone,” he trembled.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"We will get through it Nick. I know we will... as long as we have each other." Connor stayed there as she shifted to lay down a little more, staying as close to Cutter as he could. "We'll beat this. We'll beat Helen."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter nodded, taking several deep breaths as he tried to focus on Connor being there with him, that Helen wasn't near them, that they could get through this, "we will," he said softly, "I'm not going to let her beat us, I want to stop her,"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"You were so brave, standing up to her Nick" Connor said softly. "even when she was threatening you, you didn't give her what she wanted, you did what you knew was right. You didn't give in and I'm so proud of you Nick."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter trembled, "I don't feel brave right now," he admitted, "I'm ... I know she would have hurt us anyway but its ... its hard not trying to think about the what ifs, if I'd done something differently, we wouldn't be here right now," he said quietly.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"We all could beat ourselves up with what ifs... I have to try and stop myself too" Connor admitted. "It's hard I know but thinking about that just stops us from moving forward. If Helen couldn't stop us her way she'd want to stop us like this."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter nodded, "I know that's her endgame, she wants to stop us, physically, mentally ... it doesn't matter to her, its all a game to her, I'm just sorry everyone got caught up in her game as well," he said quietly, "I'm sorry that she took it out on you,"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"She would have found us one way or another. And it is us standing between her and her goal and her plans" Connor said with a small shiver. " We knew the risks and we know what is at stake. But right now... we have to focus on this" he said as he reached out and lanced his fingers with Cutter's.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter took a deep breath and nodded as he held Connor's hand in his, giving it a gentle squeeze, "we focus on this and then we find a way to stop Helen once and for all," he said softly, "I want to live the rest of my life with you, I want us to be able to do that without worrying about Helen,"
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor nodded and gave that hand a squeeze. "I want us to have that future we've dreamt of. Do all the things we have talked about. I want that for us and we are going to have it. Helen is not going to take that away from us."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter nodded as he held Connor’s hand, “and we will get there, I promise,” he said determinedly, “I love you so much Connor,”
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"I love you too Nick. So much" Connor said as he leaned up and gave Cutter a soft kiss. "I'd never get through this without you. All I want is to spend the rest of my life with you."
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter leaned over as much as he was able to and kissed Connor back, “and I’d never get through this without you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you as well, we’re going to get through this,”
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"Aye we will. Together" Connor said softly as he kissed Cutter again then leaned his head back on the pillow as close as he could stay. "As long as I have you then I will be fine" he said as he closed his eyes.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter gave a small smile at that kiss and then leaned back against the pillows, "aye, we're going to be fine together," he promised and then he started to feel tired again and closed his eyes, "I love you Connor," he said softly.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	"Love you Nick" Connor said softly. "You rest. I will be right here. I'll keep watch and make sure you are ok." He gave Cutter a small smile and gently rubbed his arm as he lay there beside him.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	Cutter gave a small smile as he leaned into that touch and got as comfortable as he could, "thank you Connor," he said softly, "love you," and then he began to drift off to sleep again.
Connor(anomaly_research_nerd)	Connor stayed and gently rubbed Cutter's arm as he watched him drift to sleep. After a few minutes, he shifted, pulling his arm away to get more comfortable though he stayed there beside Cutter and as promised kept a watch over him as he slept.
Cutter(itsananomaly)	It took a few moments of uncertainty, afraid of having more nightmares but eventually Cutter drifted off to sleep again, the nightmares staying away this time and he was able to fall back asleep.
Lester(thearcfamily)	It had been a couple of weeks since the attack on the ARC, Cutter and Connor were awake and recovering and Sarah was continuing to go through her recovery as well, they were still at the hospital and Lester had just finished covering for Danny and Jenny had taken his place. Now he was going through the various forms that were piling up, including continuing piling the evidence against Christine, Wilder and Helen who had still not been found despite their best efforts. It was going to be a long day.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker had been in a mood... one he hadn't been able to shake himself from since everything had happened. Sarah was hurt. Badly. She could have died. She might never fully recover. And it was his fault. It had been weeks and every time he closed his eyes, all Becker could see was Wilder, leering over Sarah, her cries echoing in his head, and her eyes pleading with him to help... and every time he was powerless still to save her. He had failed her. He had to make things right and he had to be there for her now, when she needed him the most. That was why he was standing outside of Lester's office, hair uncharacteristically dishevelled, stubble on his face, and dark circles under his eyes. With a slow, deep breath, he reached out and knocked on the door.
Lester(thearcfamily)	Lester looked up from his work, "yes come in ..." and he took a good long look at his head of security, the state that he was in, "have you slept at all Captain Becker?" he knew the answer to that but there wasn't much point in asking if he was alright when it was clear that he wasn't.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"It's been a bit... Sir" Becker said, his voice almost sounding painful as he spoke. "Been staying with Sarah as much as I can." He gave a small nod to Lester, knowing he looked bad... he felt bad too.
Lester(thearcfamily)	Lester nodded at that, he knew that this would be eating the Captain up, even just judging his personal appearance, "I understand Captain, if there's anything I can do to help you and Dr. Page let me know," he said softly, "what can I do for you?"
Becker(thearcfamily)	"I'm actually here to talk to you about Sarah... in a way... and myself as well...." Becker said fumbling a little despite having rehearsed this speech half a dozen times already. With a sigh, he took the envelop he had under his arm, looked at it for a moment then handed it over to Lester silently.
Lester(thearcfamily)	Lester didn’t need to ask what was in the envelope, he had been expecting it honestly that someone was going to want to resign after what had happened at the ARC, “are you sure Captain?” he asked softly as he took the envelope, not opening it first, “no one blames you for what happened, if that’s what you’re worried about,”
Becker(thearcfamily)	"I blame myself sir" Becker said trying to stay as professional as he could though there was a quiver to his voice. "I failed... again... to protect Nick and Connor... I failed to protect the team.... I failed to protect Sarah...." Becker closed his eyes as he tried to push down the lump he felt in his throat. "I don't deserve to be part of the team if I can't do my duty. I am sorry Sir."
Lester(thearcfamily)	"You did everything that you could, none of us saw this coming," Lester said quietly, still not opening the letter of resignation, wanting to give Becker every chance that he had to reconsider, "you got Sarah out, we could never have seen what Helen was going to do to Cutter and Connor, you can't blame yourself for that,"
Becker(thearcfamily)	"Perhaps not. But still" Becker nodded to the envelope. "It's for the best. Sarah... Sarah needs me. I need to be with her full time, to take care of her. You and... the rest of the team deserve better." There was a moment of hesitation. "I do appreciate everything you have done Sir. But I would still like to turn in my letter of resignation."
Lester(thearcfamily)	"I understand, we'll be sorry to see you go," Lester said softly, staring at the unopened letter in his hands, "the team will miss you Captain, especially Cutter and Connor, are you going to tell them your decision?" he knew how close the three of them were.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"I'm going to miss the team... Nick and Connor especially." He looked at Lester then down to his hands as he fiddled nervously. "I was hoping you could tell them, Sir. I... I don't think I am something they need to see and worry about right now. It is probably for the best I just fade out... for the time being... until they are recovered." Becker glanced back up at Lester then dropped his gaze again in shame, He knew he was taking the easy way out, that he was being a coward but he just didn't think he could face Cutter and Connor.
Lester(thearcfamily)	Lester had been expecting that, Cutter and Connor weren't going to like that decision, "they won't be happy with the decision, I'll tell them but I want to wait a few days, they've had enough shocks to the system, I would prefer to give them a bit more time before I tell them," he sighed and nodded, accepting the envelope and putting it on his desk, he didn't have to file it away just yet, hopefully by then Becker would change his mind, "you're a good man and a good soldier Captain, thank you for everything you've done for the ARC, we wouldn't have made it this far without you,"
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker nodded. It took a moment for him to find his voice as he stared at the envelope on Lester's desk. "I know. I'm going to miss the team. Please tell Cutter and Connor, whenever you do tell them, that I am sorry and that they're always going to be a special place to me. I just.... I can't do this. Not now. And I know they likely won't want anything to do with me after this but... please let them know I am here for them still if they need."
Lester(thearcfamily)	Lester nodded as he stood up and reached his hand out for Becker to shake, "I understand and I will, you will always have a place here Captain, if you change your mind," he said softly.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker stood as well and shook Lester's hand with a small nod. "Thank you for everything Sir. I... we'll see what happens. Right now I need to be there for Sarah. Thank you for understanding." Becker shook Lester's hand and had to blink slightly to push back the sting behind his eyes just then. "It's been an honor to work with you Sir."
Lester(thearcfamily)	Lester was also doing his best to not show his emotions, he never liked goodbyes, especially when it was members of his team as he shook Becker's hand, "and its been an honour for me as well Captain," he said softly, "I imagine I'll see you around the hospital for the next little at least?"
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker nodded, started to say something then stopped, knowing he wouldn't be able to get through it without that mask he was barely keeping on sliding off completely. Instead he gave another small nod as he dropped his hand back to his sides. As he headed for the door of Lester's office he stopped and turned and looked back at the man who had become more than just his boss. "You... you'll keep me posted on how they do?" he asked softly. "And I'll do the same for Sarah."
Lester(thearcfamily)	Lester nodded as he hand fell to his side as he watched Becker start to leave, "please keep me informed of her progress," he said softly, "and I will keep you updated on how Cutter and Connor do, they're going to be in hospital for a while I'm afraid," he added, trying not to think about how Cutter and Connor were going to take the news of Becker's resignation.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker nodded, taking everything he had to not walk back over and snatch that letter off Lester's desk. But he knew this was for the best... for now... he needed to do this. it was best for the team, and that was what mattered. "Thank you, James" he said with a small nod, the look on his face making him look even more ragged than he already did. "For everything." Becker gave one last nod then turned and left the office, closing the door behind him, furiously trying to blink away the tears that he suddenly felt as he made his way down the hallway.
Lester(thearcfamily)	Lester nodded, once Becker was gone, he wiped away a few tears of his own that he hadn't realised had fallen and he sat back down in his desk, staring at the unopened resignation later. Instead of opening it or filing it, he decided to stick it in his drawer for now, he really hoped Becker would change his mind.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah had lost count of how long she had been in the hospital for, the days had blurred together and were a mix of tests and doctors and nurses but she knew today was going to be different, she was going to be starting physical therapy today and start getting out of bed on her own. She was scared and glad that Becker was there with her. She fidgeted with her hands since she could no longer play with her hair when she was nervous.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker had just arrived that morning as soon as he had been allowed to come back from a forced break by the staff. He had 'gone to get some sleep meaning he had slept for a few hours out in the lobby. Now he was back beside the bed where he had spent most of his time lately. He reached out and gently took one of Sarah's hands in his and looked at her. "You ok, Sarah? How are you doing this morning?"
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah trembled as Becker took her hand, she was glad he was back, she always missed him when the staff insisted that he had to leave for a few hours, "I'm nervous," she admitted, "they said I had to start physical therapy today," she said softly.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"I know" he said softly as he rubbed her hand gently. "I'm here. I will be here every step of the way for you Sarah. We are going to get through this." Becker leaned over and gently kissed her forehead below the bandages as he gave her hand a squeeze.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	"What if I can't do it?" Sarah said fearfully, tears rolling down her cheeks, "what ... what if I can't do things like I used to," that had been one of her biggest fears the longer the hospital stay went on.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"Then we adapt. We do what we can, what we have to. As long as I have you"Becker gave her hand a squeeze and reached up to brush away the tears on her cheeks, "I have all I will ever need."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah bit her lip and nodded as she tried to stop the tears, "thank you for staying with me," she said softly, "for being here with me," she looked up worriedly at him, "were you able to get much sleep?" she had a feeling that he hadn't gotten much, not that she blamed him, she hadn't been able to get a lot of sleep either.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"I got enough. I'm fine" he said knowing even with the little sleep he did get it was likely more than Sarah had gotten with nurses coming in all the time. "And I am going to be with you every step of the way through this. I promise."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah nodded, taking a deep breath as she tried to control her fears, "its going to hurt isn't it?" she asked softly, from all the tests and scans she had been taken to, the slightest bit of movement hurt and now they were going to try have her start walking again, she didn't know how she was going to manage.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker knew he couldn't lie to Sarah. He knew from his own experience how much it would hurt and how difficult it would be, but Sarah didn't deserve to be lied to. Becker sat on the edge of the bed and put his arm around her shoulders and pulled her close. "It will hurt" he said simply. "I will be right here with you. I'm not going to leave your side, Sarah. You are brave and strong and I know you can do this."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah leaned against Becker, trembling at what was in store for her, "I don't feel very brave and strong right now," she admitted, "I'm afraid and we haven't even started yet," she said softly.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"You are doing better than I did my first time going to therapy.." Becker said as he held her close. "I tried to run away and get out of the hospital. Which was a sight considering my leg was so bad I could barely stand... hence the therapy being needed."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	And for the first time in a while Sarah managed a small smile as she leaned against Becker, "I don't think I'll be trying to run away," she admitted, "everything hurts to much when I try to move," she said quietly.
Becker(thearcfamily)	'You have no need to. I’m here. You aren’t going to face this alone Sarah." Becker wrapped his arm around her tighter and held her close. As he leaned over to kiss her cheek softly there was a know on the door and he doctor and a few of the nurses walked in.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah trembled and took a deep breath as she kept leaning against Becker, even when the doctor and nurses came in. "Good morning Dr. Page, we're going to be starting with your physical therapy today," the doctor told her and Sarah nodded fearfully but made no move to sit up.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker gave her hand a comforting squeeze as he looked up at the doctor. "We are going to start slow and easy" the doctor said trying to sound reassuring as the nurses got things ready. "Our goal for this first session is just to see how you can manage standing up. No walking. We just want to start building your strength and stamina back up."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah shook as she tried to take a deep breath to calm her fears, "ok...okay," she managed, "just standing up," she didn't want to do even that but she knew that she had to, she had to be brave. "Just standing up," the doctor confirmed, "we don't want to rush into this due to the nature of your head wound, we'll take this nice and slow," Sarah nodded and then slowly began to sit up, she looked at Becker for reassurance that she was going to be okay.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker shifted on the bed so Sarah had more room, but he kept his hand on her back, trying to give her that grounding support as she sat up. "There you go... slow and steady... I'm right here" he said, helping keep her steady as she got upright in the bed. "There you go... look at you" he said with a smile though he kept his hand in place.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah whimpered as Becker helped her into sitting position, she took several deep breaths and managed a weak smile, "what .. what do I need to do now?" she said, wincing at the pain. "Now I just need you to place both feet on the ground," the doctor instructed and Sarah gingerly tried to do that, letting out a whimper at how cold it was, "the floor is cold," she protested.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker looked over at one of the nurses and nodded. She handed him something and then he gently rubbed Sarah's back before standing up. Without a word Becker knelt down on the floor beside the bed after helping Sarah get steady. He took what the nurse had given him and gave Sarah a soft smile as he carefully started helping her put on the pair of gripper socks. "These will help" he said softly as he looked up at her with an encouraging smile.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah gave a small smile in response as Becker helped put the socks on her, her feet started feeling warmer already, "they feel warm," she said, relaxing a little now that her feet weren't so cold.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"Good" Becker said with a soft smile as he stood and took her hands in his. "Now, whenever you're ready to try. I'm right here. You won't fall, I promise."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah took a deep breath, as she held Becker's hands, "I'm ... I think I'm ready to try," she said, as she stared down at the socks on her feet, trying to get the last bit of courage that she needed to try and take this first step.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker held her hands and gave them a small squeeze and then pulled ever so gently as she started to slide up off the bed and onto her feet. He kept his eyes locked with hers and tried to keep her focused on him, knowing the pain would hit almost instantly.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah slowly started to rise and for a moment she thought it was going to be okay, her feet didn't feel cold and she was trying to focus on that fact first but then as soon as she started to bend that was when the pain hit and she let out a cry and wanted to sit back down on the bed, "I can't do this," she cried, as she looked at Becker, trembling in her half squatting position.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker held her tightly and slipped one arm around her to support her. "Yes you can do it, you got this Sarah..." Becker shifted so he could look at her more easily. "You can sit down in just a minute. I promise."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah was crying in pain as she leaned against Becker, "it hurts," she protested as she tried to keep lifting herself into a standing position,, "I ... I don't want to do this anymore," she whimpered.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker had his arms wrapped around her as he looked at the doctor and nodded. He shifted slightly and helped Sarah sit back down on the bed. "It's alright Sarah... we're good... you did good..." he said as he tried to help her back in bed.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah cried in pain as she helped back in the bed, "do I have to do that again?" she whimpered as she tried to get comfortable but everything was hurting and she didn't think she could do that just then.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker stood close and held Sarah against himself as he rubbed her back. "Not right now. We can wait a little bit before we try again" Becker said as he looked at the doctor, the look in his eyes saying they were going to wait.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	The doctor nodded, seeing that look in Becker's eyes, "you can wait a few minutes and rest Dr. Page, the nurses are going to draw some bloods as well so that we have an idea of your body's response to the physical therapy, that will give us a better understanding of your treatment moving forward," Sarah whimpered as she leaned against Becker, she didn't like the idea of more blood being drawn but it was better than having to stand again, "...alright," she managed, tears rolling down her cheeks.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker wrapped his arms around Sarah protectively and held her close, wishing he could do something more to help her. He gently rubbed her back as the nurses drew the necessary bloodwork and kissed the top of her head softly.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah cried softly as she leaned against Becker, trying to not look as the nurses took the blood, she just wanted to be able to sleep and not do anything but she knew she had to try standing up again but her body still ached. "Okay Dr. Page, are you ready to try standing up again?" the doctor encouraged once the nurses were done. Sarah trembled, "do I have to?" she whimpered as she leaned against Becker.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"Try just one more time. For me" Becker said as he gave Sarah's arms a gentle squeeze. "I'll help you do this. We'll do it together alright?"
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah trembled and nodded, "ok...okay I'll do one more," she sobbed as she reluctantly began to pull away from Becker, "you won't let go?" she checked as she began to sit up straighter.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"I will never let go Sarah" he said as he locked eyes with her and grabbed hold of her hands firmly. "Stand up, let the doctors check what they need to, then you can sit down and we're done. I know you can do this Sarah."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah took a deep breath as she held Becker's hand tightly, "okay, I'll ... I'll stand up," she said and began to move around to the edge of the bed again and then slowly began to lower them to the ground.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker carefully helped her back up onto her feet and slipped one arm around her waist lightly so he could support her if needed. "There you go... nice and slow. Up we go "he said as he helped her slowly stand.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah whimpered, she was trying to focus on Becker helping her stand and not that she had to do this again but the pain was getting too much and she kept crying out as she finally stood upright. "It hurts," she cried. "You're doing very well Dr. Page, just a few more minutes that's all we need," the doctor promised.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"I got you Sarah... You're almost done. Just keep looking at me" Becker said as he kept talking trying to keep Sarah's attention and focus on him. "You are almost done. It's almost over."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah bit her lip as she tried to fight back a cry of pain as she did her best to look at Becker, trying to ignore the doctor as he kept writing notes, she started wobbling and she held even tighter to Becker. "Okay you can get back into bed now Dr. Page, that was very good, that was a very good start," the doctor praised and Sarah let out a cry of relief as she half sank against Becker.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker tightened his arm around her and moved closer. In a smooth gentle movement, he took her in his arms bridal style and walked the few feet to the bed and gently laid her back down in the bed. "I am so proud of you" he said as he laid her down and leaned over and kissed her forehead gently.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah clung to Becker as he carried her back to bed and began to lay her back down, she trembled, taking several deep breaths as she tried to fight through the pain, "it hurts," she whimpered. "I'll get the nurses to give you something for the pain Dr. Page," the doctor told her as he finished his notes, "but that was a very good first session, from here we will be able to work through a routine that will help you get stronger," Sarah winced at that, "do I have to do that again?" she knew she did but she didn't like the idea of doing that all over again.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"Not today you don't" Becker said softly as he gently stroked Sarah's cheek and wiped away the tears. "You can rest and relax now. I'll stay with you and you can rest now. I promise."
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah nodded as she sank back down into the pillows, trying to ignore the pain that was flowing through her as the nurse filled up her IV, "I would like," she said softly, "thank you, for staying with me through this," she said with a small, tired smile.
Becker(thearcfamily)	Becker shifted and laid down on the bed beside her and slipped his arm around her as the nurses worked on the IV. "You rest, I will watch over you Sarah. I will be here when you wake up" Becker whispered softly.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Sarah's eyes began to feel heavy as she leaned against Becker, "okay," she said softly, "I love you Becker," she said as she let out a tired yawn.
Becker(thearcfamily)	"Love you Sarah. So much" Becker whispered as he stroked her cheek and held her close as she drifted to sleep, the doctors and nurses and everything else fading away for a time as he held her in his arms protectively.
Sarah(thearcfamily)	Eventually Sarah began to drift off as sleep overtook her, taking comfort in Becker's presence as he held her and she was comforted by the fact that she wouldn't have to do any more standing for the day and she could just rest and focus on being with Becker.