The tears were spilling over now, "I ..." Cutter tried to return that smile but he couldn't ... he made such a mess of everything, he had let Helen get into his head and ruin everything good that he had going for him, "I ... " he stood there, unable to stop the tears, "I messed everything up ...again,"

He realised that was basically confirming that he and Connor had been together but talking through his relationship with Stephen and his failings there, was bringing everything to the surface.