Connor didnt want to say, but he knew he owed this to Cutter. He knew he had to be honest about it if they wanted a chance to make this work between them.

"It... it was Helen" Connor said softly. "She had attacked the ARC, Nick... he went after her and... she shot him." Connor took a slow shaky breath as the vivid memories flashed through his mind again clear as they had been the day it had happened. "I found him. I... I tried to get him out... I tried to save him but I... I couldn't. Nick... my Nick... died in my arms." Connor fell silent as he closed his eyes fighting back the tears that were threatening to fall.