Cutter trembled, “it just feels hard to do that,“ he said softly, “I … I screwed up majorly a few months ago, it’s why I’m not team leader at the moment, I … myself and Connor were kidnapped by Helen and Stephen and … an ex boss who started after … “ his voice trailed off as he was about to say ‘you died’ but realised he still couldn’t do that, “well … you know … and they held us captive for a week and tortured us, we were lucky to get out of there alive … I convinced Connor to come with me the day we were captured, without backup, what kind of leader does that?”