Cutter bit his lip, "I'm ...I'm a terrible leader," he said softly as he stared down at his gloved hands, "I ... I ... I keep messing things up ... I ... I ...I got you killed to start with, I stupidly went after Helen ... caused a whole lot of trouble for the team ...and now ... I don't ...I don't think I can be team leader again, not after ... not after what happened,"